Mental health is a big issue at the moment, so here at Lytham St Annes news we are focusing on mental health. We made contact with Sarah Williams from St Annes who has shared her story with us!
Hi, so I am Sarah, I’m 24 and the author of the blog at the bottom of the page, Being Beautiful Borderline Me. I posted one last week, here is the link if you would like to read my most recent blog.
I have always been open about my journey with mental health, when Lytham St Annes News contacted me wanting to do a story on my blog I was so taken back, I have set them to public because I never want it to be something to be ashamed of but I never imagined to be contacted and asked to share them this far, to have come this far with very little support has been incredibly tough, I owe all the thanks to the mental health support group I attend on a Tuesday at Claremont Community Centre from 12-2pm, STAR Blackpool, which stands for Stand Together And Recover, which is exactly what they’re doing with me, standing with me in my recovery. I also want to thank my friends who have supported me, dealt with the intensity of having a friend with mental illness. Mental illness is hard and I don’t quite know how I have got this far, I owe so much gratitude and thanks to the people above but I want to say now that true recovery comes from yourself, I had to decide to accept help, I had to decide that I wanted to do this for myself and that was the hardest thing ever, did I love myself, no, did I want to love myself? I am not sure but in order to get to where I wanted to be, I had to, I had to say that I deserved the help, I wanted it for myself and to better myself, looking back, it was a hard decision, I can’t say things are perfect, far from it but being on a journey is okay, having emotions is okay, it’s okay. As I said above, mental illness is never something to be ashamed of, I saw a quote the other day, it was three words, they hit me like a tonne of bricks. It simply said, ‘Recovery Isn’t Linear’. Recovery isn’t something that’s a smooth ride, it takes highs, lows, peaks, troughs and a lot of strength to get through, I also learnt that it won’t happen overnight and that’s okay. Something that has also helped my recovery massively, just this year, on the first of January, I pledged to try and go sober for a full year, this led to me working out how long I had gone without self-harm and when I worked it out, I had just passed the 8 month mark, this was totally mind blowing but it kept me focused on what I really want, which yes is my recovery. I just want to say in closing that it’s okay to not be okay, life is tough, but so are you.
Love always, there is always someone out there to listen. X